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Connedincalifornia posted an update 5 years, 11 months ago
Philosophical musings inspired by ML light. I have two daughters, neither of which agree with my view of current events. Do they love me? What does that mean? They certainly appreciate all I’ve done for them. They certainly ‘recall’ loving me as children can love and perhaps as young adults love. In my own experience, as an adult, if I lost respect for a person, poof, the love was gone. Does that reflect a shortcoming of mine or is that how it works? Do my children respect me? They would say absoelutely. ‘How can that be?’ I would ask identifying with my thoughts. They ‘might’ respond, ‘with all that you’ve done and do for us,’ or ‘for how you’ve lived and are living your life.’ And I, what? Ever seeking, ever needing, would like them to respect my thoughts. I’ve never placed much value on all I’ve done and do for them. How could I not do that? It’s as much a part of me as the color of my eyes, it just IS. And, I’ve never placed much value on how I’ve lived, how could I not live as I’ve lived? It too is as much a part of me as the color of my eyes, it just IS. I should add, my daughters would also say they love me for who and what I am. Who am I? What am I?
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Stop worrying, interact with them as adults, and agree to disagree….
Not to worry 😊 I’m not worrying. Just musing… Speaking of musing, as I listened to Thomas Cowan he posed a question, ‘there are more bacteria within us than cells, that begs the question, ‘what are we?’’
Whoa, those are the big questions we who care ask ourselves and commit to finding the answers. Most do not bother asking or consider the exercise futile and beyond their capability or not necessary to living the hedonic modern lifestyle so promoted by peers, especially when we are mere tadpoles in our environment.
Most of us look to others to validate and define our being. The mirror image reflection motif.
Looking out is good for discerning and understanding the physical terrain. Looking in to find out who is looking out reveals you are unique, have your ways and are comfortable in your own skin. Congratulations.
Oh yeah I forgot. Happy Mother’s Day…they be lucky to have you for their Mother. Hope they are counting their blessings today and always.
Thank you.
As a person who was always grieved because I could not have children, and on “Mother’s Day”, I hear your hurt, and am relieved (in a way) that I don’t have that pain. My sister never understood my mother and she caused the kind of hurt that you describe. I never inflicted that on my mother. Period.
At a time when the Luciferans, even in their being invisible, are breaking up families (see videos of what is happening in Australia – horrifying) it is hard, but necessary, to throw off the years of entrainment to which your children have been controlled. Don’t think you can change that over night now. Be the good person they have always loved and show how you are the strength, when they finally see the light, that has always been there for them.
The fact that you are here, Connedincalifornia, means you are strong. Stay with it. We are always here to watch your back. You know that.
I think of some of the hurtful hings I said to my own mother while stupid and young and can only as k forgiveness on days like this.
She died in her sleep the day after Mother’s Day 1981 in a nightgown I gave her the day before. She was pretty much bedridden at the tender age of 53.
Justa, I’m new here and haven’t posted yet but your words, as they have many times, inspired me. Your contributions here are amazing and greatly appreciated, let me say. Thank you. It breaks my heart that you couldn’t have kids and I’m sorry for you and the world. I have worked with kids rescue and it beggars the mind who has kids without trying nor ever caring. It’s a thing we cannot comprehend. Carry on with your worthwhile work.
Thank you for your compassionate reply. I’m actually fine and enjoy my daughters. It’s just odd and I am inclined to ponder the many meanings of things. I must take a good part of responsibility for the current (and only current) state of affairs. As they were growing up they were privy to quite a lot of my criticism of US policy. I did not then put that criticism into it’s historical context.
I’ll add that the Giza community of good and intelligent folks is much appreciated.